I wrote this several days ago. Although I am no longer feeling this way now I though I’d share it anyway.
I can’t scroll my Facebook news-feed without feeling like I’m in the middle of a stampede; constantly being bombarded with news that hits me in the gut leaving me breathless.
So I’m choosing to remain ignorant and maybe then, I will find bliss.
I am an extremely empathetic person. Definitely to a fault. Especially for those with out a voice.
Why is it that everything that is related to me seems to be controversial.
Depression — Robin Williams’ death and hearing people voice that depression is a choice
Circumcision — We didn’t have Ari circumcised and I’ve read many story of sweet baby boys being in pain because their parents didn’t know any other way. It hurts my heart so badly!
Race — Micheal Brown being killed, and the divide that has been exacerbated.
Breastfeeding — I just participate in The Big Latch On. I see things in the news about nursing in public being some crazy controvesey. It just gets to me!
Innocent Babies being born with horrible diseases like Epidermiysis Bullosa, like my Ellie!
Being Vegetarian – stories of animal abuse . . . I cant take it
This is what I HAD to walk away from. I couldn’t take anymore.
Of course I know I have an option — I subject myself to these stories by liking the pages but, I want more than anything to be informed and do what I can to help all suffering beings, but it is killing me.
My heart hurts so badly.
I’ve been feeling a heaviness the last couple of days. Hoping that it is only in my head, praying that it isn’t postpartum depression. I’m hoping that it’s nothing more than ovulation returning, which means I get to add the roller coaster ride of PMS to the mix.
Regardless, I can’t deny that dark familiar cloud hovering just above my head. But my logic says if I keep walking fast enough maybe — maybe I will out run it.
This is my hope…
The Future Glory Romans 8 (NLT)
 Yet what we suffer now is nothing compared to the glory he will reveal to us later.