I’m Scared . . .The Day Has Come; I’m a Stay At Home Mom

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Today is supposed to be my very last day. No more working — no more job! It’s harder than I’d expected it to be. I’m sure it will be nice not to get up at the crack of dawn, fight morning sickness and traffic and sit uncomfortably through-out the day, but still it’s not as easy as I though it would be.

I’m so torn … should I keep working? After all there are only two and a half weeks left before Christmas break, could I make it, or would it just be for the money?

I can’t believe that it’s my LAST day!

I feel this way because my job isn’t a typical job of performing tasks. For the last 4 years my “job” has been a relationship, my job is a person. I started working as a Pre-school Facilitator for a 3 year old little girl back in 2009. Ellie has Epidermalysis Bullosa (EB) her skin is extremely fragile, so I act as her body-guard essentially. She is now 6 and I was lucky enough to be hired by her new school system as her one-on-one nurse (I guess my nursing degree did come in handy after all). Over the last four years I’ve spent more waking hours with Ellie than ANY OTHER person! I’m quitting a person not a job, and it’s hard.

Not only that, but will I go crazy at home all day alone? Will I stay productive?

I have the option to keep working. I’m not sure if I can make it. This pregnancy has been rough, it’s nice to know that I have the option.

The end to one wonderful chapter and the beginning of another
Deep breath…sigh…

Did any other mommies struggle with leaving their jobs and careers? How did you deal?

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