Bikini Prep: Trusting Yourself. Trusting the Process

#TheStruggleIsReal #JustSaying

Here it is roughly three weeks into April and I am just about ready to rethink my aspiration of becoming a NPC Bikini Competitor.

Some days I wake up and look in the mirror and feel like a freaking rock star. Other Most days I hate what the mirror says back to me and I want to eat one dozen glazed doughnuts and never step foot in the gym again!

The evidence is right here. I posted this to my FB wall last night…Giving Up

But, I think I am finding my groove and hopefully by May I will have a plan that works for me nailed down. That will give me 12 weeks until show time!

I have to remind myself to trust the process, trust the work that I do each and every day… Just TRUST it!

We have all heard this before…

There’s no one size fits all… blah blah blah!

It sucks. Its true.

No one wants to hear it. I just want to search Pinterest find a plan and be done with it!

But actually there is beauty in taking the time to get to know my very own body and it has been time well spent.

It has taken me at least a month to try different ways of eating, different workout plans and splits, different approaches to cardio; LISS vs HIIT . . . How much cardio is enough etc etc.

It is also important to looks at what YOUR body needs. For example I have tooth pick calves, they need lots of work so I work them more often and with heavy weights. I have to be careful with my thighs because they are large already so I try to not go over board with exercises that focus on them (but I’m still trying to figure this out).

Guess what the best part is… as my body changes my needs will change and everything that I’ve learned over the past month will have to be adjusted.

Bodybuilding is an art-form for sure!

This is what I am doing now:


(I will be posting a detailed version of my training and diet in the near future)

Monday:Upper Body & Cardio

Tuesday: Lower Body

I take a B.A.T (Buns Abs & Thighs) Class in the AM and I lift with hubby in the evenings

Wednesday: Cardio

Thursday: Upper & cardio

Friday: Lower & Cardio

Saturday: Off or Cardio

Sunday: Off

Diet. If you call it that…

I was trying to do a typically bodybuilding diet eat 6 times a day etc. etc. but it made me pudgy and fat. I was literally force feeding myself! So now my diet is..

Eat Clean – Eat Consciously – Eat More Protein… Period!

I am on day three of clean-ciously eating and already see results! They say Abs are made in the kitchen… I say they are made away from the kitchen when you aren’t stuffing your face constantly because some meal plan said you should 🙂

I do drink protein shakes… growing muscles need more than I was getting from my vegan-ish diet. I’ll share the powders I use below

I use rules from Bethenny Frankel’s book Naturally Thin: Unleash Your SkinnyGirl and Free Yourself from a Lifetime of Dieting
and they really help me so much.

She “tells” me how to eat what I already eat and not WHAT to eat. If someone tells me what to eat ill eat the opposite just because. Hell, I’m vegetarian and If i’m told I HAVE to eat veggies I’d probably eat meat…. it’s psychological for sure!

VainMommy’s Vegan Superfood Protein Shake

Blend blend blend. Add ice to a glass or bottle or just blend in right on into the shake.  I put mine in my Contigo Water Bottle it keeps it cold for 18 hours!!

But it never lasts that long. We all know nothing is worse than lukewarm protein.

Why rice and pea protein? I read here that it is a vegans whey protein and whey is supposed to be the best at building muscle.

This is me after eating a plan NOT made specially for my body!VainMommy Bikini Prep Before I am so disappointed… I really thought that I looked good y’all. I was even smiling! SHM. I was bloated holding on to tons of water and just “fat” in my honest opinion. When I trusted myself during my transformation back in Dec I looked 100 times better than here!


12 Week Transformation Results

Progress pics are a must . . . unfortunately I choose to share mine with the world.

I keep you all updated and expect to see a progress pic on May 1st

Fit Mommy
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  • Reply
    May 4, 2015 at 1:57 pm

    Hi Raivon, good for you! 12 weeks is plenty of time to get it going and change your life! I also encourage you to read Angelike Norrie’s nutrition plan – she tossed out the 5-6 small meals a day as well.

    • Reply
      Raivon Lee
      May 5, 2015 at 4:38 pm

      Thanks! I’m always looking for great tips and advice! I need all the help I can get! Ill check it out now! Thanks for reading!

  • Reply
    May 4, 2015 at 1:59 pm

    Oh, the prices on her website could be less expensive if you become an associate (email me for info) 🙂

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