Did your birthing and parenting views evolve or change completely with each pregnancy or birth? Mine surely have — like a complete 180!
This past weekend my good friend totally surprised me with the most beautiful baby shower! It’s my first shower, I didn’t have one with my first pregnancy because I was too ill (in my opinion) and really didn’t want to be seen by anyone and I definitely didn’t want to be the center of attention. Self-conscious and low self-esteem are under statements. But I really enjoyed myself and am so thankful to her!
I’ve been a long time “fitness chaser” or someone who would do anything to be skinny. It started back in middle school… The unhealthy ways trying to starve myself skinny, it continued into high school. I tried any crash diet I saw in a magazine, bought all the infomercial gadgets I could afford on my little YMCA salary. Always striving. Always failing. Never happy and never reaching my goal.
Of course I don’t believe that my child is too cool for school, but I couldn’t resist! Last week Greg and I made the hard decision to withdraw Ari from a lovely school. Ari is three and was attending two half-days a week. Ari loved school, but sometimes love may not be enough.
My goodness, it has been so long since I’ve posted here. I’m preparing for my afternoon nap, wrapped in a towel straight from the shower with a mug of Chamomile tea that was gifted to me in a care package from my amazing friends… and a shocking thought came to me! I should post to my blog!
Earlier this month, on August 11 to be exact. I turned THIRTY! #LeosRule!
This is the first birthday that has affected me in a positive profound way. The morning of my birthday I walked out on to the porch with my coffee, placed it on the rail… lifted my hands high and screamed to the world (in my head), “I AM 30!! I’m 30 …. I’m 30!” With a smile plastered across my face of pure glee!
I know, anxiety is really hard to understand for those of you who have never had to deal with it. I’m talking about anxiety that make talking on the phone difficult and makes eye contact feeling like a literal death stare.
Well you all… the video’s from the Listen To Your Mother Show, have officially been released and here is my video. Me reading my essay “Reality Has Its Own Plans”.
I still can’t believe that I did this but I sure am thankful that I did.
Enjoy ALL the beautiful stories from so many beautiful women.
It has been too long since I’ve posted here. I often find the inspiration for posts but rarely find the time to actually complete said posts. I’m embarrassed and slightly amused at the number of drafts waiting to be completed.
It’s a reflection of my life.
I sit online, scrolling Amazon and Zulily for the perfect toy. A toy that is educational that will teach him, a toy that will bring him joy.
How have I forgotten what he not only needs but WANTS most is me.
Ari is two now. Since the day my son was born he made it clear that mommy was his world, and he was mine.